cut myself today (nothing life threatening) just lots of small cuts. i had to see the pain. i know i feel it. i'm trying to tell people about it, but they don't seem to get it. so i had to see it.

i made an appt w/ a T, but when i got there i chickened out and said i changed my mind. he said that was my choice.

two days later i went to my primary care physician. told him i was having trouble dealing with some stuff like work. he gave me the rest of the week off, added an antidepressant and said he'd refer me to a T - but that it could be a couple months before i get an appt.

i'm trying to reach out...but failing at that miserably...like i fail at everything i do. why can't people see??

hope this doesn't upset anyone!!