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I doubt I ever got to full blown mania, and I'm glad for that...because I did so so much damage at hypomanic levels I sure as hell didn't need another 'gear'.
Lol Been re-arranging the house for lots of visitors coming, so I'm taking down my man cave. 20 times a day I stand there and shake my head at my thinking when I set it up before I got treatment. The over spending and over buying and over everything. Not only the things I bought, but the amount...I couldn't have used all this stuff if I would have lived three lifetimes. Blows me away that I got from there...to here.
And I know what I was thinking...that I was all creative, and visionary and artsy-fartsy making things and coming up with ideas. But I was kidding myself...I didn't do squat. All the things I obsessed over didn't amount to a hill of beans at the end of the day. It was just a grand waste of money and time.
So mania, hypomania, whatever you want to call yourself...just stay away from me...you've had your fun. Now just let me rest!
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