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Originally Posted by JustShakey
I've already written up two replies to this and deleted 'em both 
I think I know, but I'm scared to share. In case, you know, it all fades away or something. I was always told what I was to do. I almost feel like I'm not allowed to have my own ideas. That someone will laugh at me for being a silly girl for thinking that she can do *that*.
I was talking to my mother a month or so back about work and school and the like and she said something about my being too old to start something new. Of course my mother has always been quick to tell me what I can't do...
It's not psychology though, I'll say that. Like you, I've gotten very interested in psychology since I've been in therapy, and I would probably enjoy studying it, but I couldn't see myself working in the field. It's just not me. |
I'll be interested to hear when you're ready to tell!
I feel the same way about things.... I haven't told anyone except t and you guys that I am starting to want to to back to school to study psychology. I don't know what i'd do with it though if I did. I don't have the patience to be a t, and even my t acknowledged that (lol) when we talked about it a couple weeks ago and she said I could use it in HR or something. Although I have to say, I did get a "sit straight up in bed" kind of moment last night when I realized how much I enjoyed leading our team meeting yesterday, especially the first part where I did a little activity thing, I talked about gratitude and how I've been practicing it, every morning stating things I am grateful for on the way to work but realized that I hadn't been doing it lately, and my thought patterns were reflecting that (I'd been letting the negative stuff win lately and just kinda not trying to let it go, I think in large part due to this) so I told my team that when I passed the guard shack at work I began stating all that I am grateful for and was surprised that I was still talking when I pulled into my parking place, and when I stood up out of my car I swore I could feel the negative crap I'd let cling to me, just drop right off of me. Then I asked each of them to state something they were grateful for. Everyone did. Then I said "Now watch yourself the rest of the day, and see if you don't experience things going even just a little bit better." It set the tone for a really positive and engaged meeting with a lot of participation. I felt last night that there was something about doing that first part, that I felt a twinge of "THIS." I have never felt that feeling before. Interesting.
Ack! It is 6:30 already! I gotta get to work. Have a good day/ night couch!!!