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Old Jun 12, 2015, 08:40 AM
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Originally Posted by Row Jimmy View Post
I can relate. I don't trust many people either. Most people won't even get it. Some members of my family think I need to "drink more beer" or "suck it up".

For me, it was less of a shock because I knew something was up. It was more of a relief because now I can focus on how to attack it so I can get better. I used to whine a lot about the unfairness of the world and how things drove me to behave the way I do. I may not be "normal" like other people but that's OK.
The funny thing is- who is "normal" anyway? I thought I was, and my F up behavior was acceptable, because I was mirroring other relationships I was exposed to. Guessing if it is genetic, some in my family (parents) have some degree of mental illness.. That is something I am going through- also... forgiving them for that. Seeing it more clearly in those around me, and wishing they could get help and/or gotten help before so I wouldn't have so much trauma. But- then again I try not to have a pity-party... though i think at a time like this, a little pity for myself (in the form of kindness, patience and understanding) is acceptable. I hope you can take care of yourself, and not let those around you bother you too much. I am trying to do the same!!
Thanks for this!
Row Jimmy