Just struggling. I've gone from extreme hypo impulsive stupidity to severe depression....now it appears I'm mixed. Want to crawl in a hole and disappear but would probably explode into a million pieces before I could get there.

Finally got insurance. Called this morning to try to get into a new clinic. They don't do intakes on Fridays. Have to wait til Monday.....that seems like such a loooonnnnnggggg time away...but what are they going to do for me anyway???

Just don't wanna be here or do this today.....