I was a 'late-bloomer' so to speak as I just started self-harming several months ago having never done it before or even had the urge to do so before. Still not really sure why I tried it.....some suggested it was med induced (I am BP and was on a new AD)....it might have just been the extreme emotional stress I was under at the time. Anyway, it was a relief valve and I soon became addicted to the release the action brought. I have not SH'd since my last IP stay at the end of January. I am proud of myself for not doing it; but, I think about it almost constantly and want to.

I hope you can find a healthier alternative for release before SH becomes a habit and/or addiction. Thank you for sharing your story.