So, recently (about 3 days ago) My best friend Eric (who had been my friend since 2nd grade, and now we are both high school grads) and I planned a sleep over at a house that he was housesitting. I was so excited, yet nervous, because the 3-4 other times we had made plans, he'd said at the very last minute "sorry I can't" One time, I was hanging with my girlfriend and her friend. She would always boast how people were jealous of their friendship. and they always hung out and when we were in the car, a song came on and they were like "This is our song!" I started getting extremely jealous, not because of that, but because my girlfriend always hangs out with her best friend, yet my supposed "best friend" always cancels last minute, and I don't think him and I have hung out since last year." I started to get sad, because the song reminded me of him, and I started to get more sad, because he has changed so much since 10th grade. He used to be the shy, nice kid, like me. Hell, people thought we were brothers because we looked alike. But him and me created a band, and he has gotten really stuck up and turned a little douchey. He ended up saying last minute today that today wouldn't work, because his girlfriend wanted him to go to a family thing and he didn't want her to get pissed off. I sort of figured this would happen, but I still felt all depressed, and when I went to take a shower, I started to cry really hard. I started to point out all my flaws, like how I'm shy, and how everyone thinks I'm weird, and how I'm socially awkward. I just feel so hopeless and feel like a loser. I don't know why I'm beating myself up, but yeah. I don't want to talk to him about it, because he'll get really angry and I don't want that to ruin our friendship.