Hi Hooligan,

I know it really can't be easy, it is a loss
And losses alone can be really hard, but you were/are having a hard time anyway, right??
I wish it could be easier for you, but they were/are your friends and you clearly did/do care about them so it is completely understandable how you are hurting so much
But just try to remember this can ease with time, you can make it through this.
And you know some of this is a testament to you about how caring you are, and with that you are going to be finding more caring people in your life, who can really appreciate you and offer you true friendships as well, if you "leave the door open" for them.
So please try not to allow this experience to cut you off from that. It might take time, it might take more grieving for the friends you've had, but you can make it through.
And don't forget some of the friends you have on here too, try to let them/us help you through this, hey??

Alison