BPD-wise, I've been doing somewhat better, but I've also had this horrible depression for months now. I've been suicidal for years. And now the depression is making the suicidal tendencies worse. When things go wrong (for example, I fight with my husband), all I want to do is kill myself. There's nothing anyone can say to help. People are trying to help, but it's pointless. I'm worthless. I shouldn't be here. I'm numb to everything right now. I'm useless. All I want is relief. All I want is peace. Do these things even exist? I'm so tired of living. So tired...