So true and so sorry those some sound like your parents and the adults from your childhood.
The truth sometimes sounds like fiction. I tend to avoid talking about some of the abuse in my life because I think some part of me thinks people won't believe me. When abuse happens it's insane, it's almost surreal, it's not like what one would think it was like if it's never happened to them... Many here have histories of trauma and abuse and I believe pretty much everyone understands having a reality or parts of reality that are extreme.

I don't think you sound fake.

I wish you some peace of mind.