I can't believe that there is no need to define my sexuality. I need an identity. Also I'd really like to meet a woman and I'm never going to meet anybody if I can't at least say what's up with me. It's going to be hard enough meeting someone as a bisexual woman which it looks like I am. Everyone tells me I "don't need a label" but I'm terrified of going to LGBT events and I can't keep going like this.

I do think I have OCD though, and though I usually can separate OCD thoughts from "real" ones (even if I can't make the OCD ones go away) in this case maybe I really can't.

My therapist is assigned by the HMO and she is really clueless about LGBT issues. Plus she says what's really important is to talk about why I put myself down so much but that's not what I want to work on. I want to work on sexuality issues. So I'm having trouble getting motivated to go back.