I have had a few times where I was very suicidal and had a plan and intent .. But I forced myself to get thru the next few hours , then I would say....Ok I can make it til X and just wash rinse repeat..

I got loads of support from my friends here. I made a 30 day promise to stay safe. I started a thread and checked in daily. My friends listened to my rants, Hugged , supported me , Left me funny jokes on the thread . It made me accountable. It has worked every time I have used it. Its been a couple years now since last I needed it.

I do think that many times people just need to get pissed and push themselves to do what needs to be done.

So basically do the opposite of what you feel like doing, Kick claw and fight!

Get mad at Bipolar... But listen to your husband, he is there... he can see you..If he says you need to go then go...

Stay safe