This for me is about one of the hardest parts of depression - "Make yourself do your daily activities? Put on a nice, happy facade at work?"

Putting on a mask for others when you're dying on the inside yourself. It's far from easy. Trying to do things everyday for "me" using the strategies I have learnt for depression - well when I'm depressed sometimes I want to do nothing. Don't want to speak to people or even see people either.

I'm pretty sure your husband has valid concerns about your welfare in terms of your mental health and he's trying his best as he knows how to keep you safe.

I understand your reservations about IP and that this is a goal. It's a great goal to work your way towards. I admire how you've managed to pull yourself through work with all of this going on in the background.

I hope that for you, regardless of what management plan follows moving forward, it is one that serves in your mental health's best interest and not because others are petrified / worried etc ....