I'm pushing my way through now. I mean it's a little different than usual because it's situational, so I'm able to forget about it when other people are around. Thankfully my family has been really supportive and not leaving me alone for too long. I did just spend a week IP though...anyway. I know the feeling of taking everything just to get through the day. I'm really good at it too. Last year when I was psychotic no one knew either, they didn't know at work that the second someone stopped talking to me my head showed me images of hurting myself...so I guess I'm pretty good.

I hope your depression abates soon. But there is no shame in going IP if you need it. I hated every minute of my stay this time but looking back it gave me a chance to step back from everything and be in a safe place to experience my grief and get a handle on it.