((((((sleepy))))) actually this did make sense. And now that I've read this, the other post should've made sense, too!

I still hold to what I told you in chat that night, like AGES ago, that your T didn't know what he was doing with si. It is WAY hard to trust that much initially, and anyone who's worked with si knows that this is even more true for people who si. At least that's my take on it. I still struggle with trust a LOT, and I have known my T for 4 going on 5 years now! (Although I've only been in about 5 months consecutive of therapy, she's been a big part of my life in other contexts through that whole time. I knew her for a couple years and somewhat trusted her before I went to therapy).

Anyway, please do not ever feel bad about taking up time and space! You are entitled to it and I would rather read pages and pages of posts from you for hours and hours on end than to have you feel alone and unsupported. I mean that. Don't take it lightly. We are all here for you on psychcentral, ok?

Take care, sleepy head.

Goodnight!
Angela