Thanks all for your replies....I appreciate your thoughts. I suppose as Kimaya says, it's never to late for enlightenment!!! and I always love those 'light bulb moments'. Firstly, I need to start getting out of the house in order for me to feel a bit normal. It's not a great idea to think I will just spend my days here in the house, not doing very much, though I must be keeping somewhat busy as the day flies by. Thanks again.