Thanks for your replies. It sounds like you feel ordinary at best, or even less than ordinary, and lacking, and it hurts to feel like that. But you keep the hurt in--maybe people don't listen with kindness and understanding, so it feels safer to keep the hurt in. I'm really sorry that things hurt so much.

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It does take time to feel comfortable with a therapist. It takes time to know that she will respond with kindness and understanding and therefore to begin to trust her. How did you find your last one, how did you feel about her, and how did you end up stopping seeing her?