I don't really know why I'm writing this here but lately I've been kinda off the bandwagon again and I just felt like talking about it.

I have this thing that whenever I watch shows or movies about mental health stuff it makes me wish I had it.

Like I watched prison break and the doctor had a morphine addiction and I got obsessed over it. Like googled the withdrawal effects and 12 steps and all that.

The same with a singer who has bipolar.

Like I wouldn't start using to make myself an addict. I just find myself wishing that I already was. And I fear that since I'm a nurse and have access to meds, it would be very easy to do something bad if it ever got to that.

Idk.. I just wanted to get your guys' thoughts on this I guess.