Well, the only reason I've been analyzing my situation is so I can learn what went wrong so hopefully I won't make the same mistakes next time. Mistakes were made by both of us, but I can only control the ones I made. Some of the blame I am placing on myself though. I think I was looking at him thru rose colored glasses because I liked being around him. I've taken the glasses off now and see how it really was.

I think you'd also be surprised at how many people our age ARE looking for new friends. Maybe not a ton of friends, but there are so many Meetup groups, some specifically for ages 40 and up, Facebook page groups for singles. I think at this age many people are either getting divorced, widowed or they're single and their friends are all married, so they're looking for people to hang out with. Maybe not to find deep emotional connections, but there are a lot of people out there over 40 who are looking for friends to do things with. I'm one of them.