great replies all! I apologize for labeling anyone as a sufferer and also perhaps for the way I framed the question. I honesty thank you all for taking the time to reply. I guess what I am driving at is the big question: When and if she seeks help and stabilizes, will she recall her "psychosis" etc. and reflect? I know I should be thinking about other aspects of my life and I appreciate the advice. I just know that she meant every word she said to me throughout the relationship and she was dead set on us getting married. We were weeks away from me popping the question for real. This was by far the most special relationship/best friendship that either of us had ever been in, we were perfectly in sync and healthy. I'm sorry, I am rambling