Kerry,

I think sometimes about my mortality. Things like have I done any of the things I wanted to do, accomplished the things I wanted. What about the people I'll leave behind, my loved ones. Will they be OK financially? I don't think about suicide much anymore, it's really not an option for me. I've given myself too much to live for, even thru the pain.

I don't know if this is the answers you were looking for, I tend to ramble early in the morning. I think you're new here, if so, welcome to the forums. If not, sorry I'm late in welcoming you.

Greg