Keep having new obsessions or dislikes. New one I overt thought about cotton and couldn't touch a towel. Because after washing my hands I felt icky rubbing them on the towel and obsessed about that and had a hard time touching towels for a day or two. I was tired like normal and then starting cleaning found my self scrubbing viguriously on the floor. I had sweat dripping down from my head, my hair was soaked. Payed down realized all the things I've been doing in my life and almost had a complete anxiety attack from learning about OCD. I'm scared now and obsessed over that. Here I am in my room next to me is a bottle of Ativan to calm me down but my head is somewhere else totally obsessing on something I can't get up. SCARED SCARED.!!my mind is somewhere else but my body is here. Help??!!!!

Even when I'm going through periods of complete depression I still have routines of some sort. Even if I'm not focused on doing something repeatedly. Again I'm scared.