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Old Jun 14, 2015, 08:12 AM
Daisymay Daisymay is offline
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Originally Posted by Coco3 View Post
Thank you so much for this! I do really need my T's support, this made me realise it even more. You're right, I am forcing myself to cope on my own.

Were you also attached to your T? How long after your therapy did you contact him or her again? Did you get attached again?
Yes, I was very attached and felt very dependent on her for quite a while. I had strong 'maternal transference' feelings - kind of wishing she could look after me. It took a lot of understanding and passing of time and developing of myself before that lessened and turned into something that felt easier, lighter and 'healthy' to me. I didn't attempt to leave until I reached that point where my relationship with her felt kind of 'grown -up' if that makes sense. So, when I did get back in touch about eight months after termination - for the first of occasional checking in sessions by phone (which happen now a few times a year) - my dependency didn't get triggered again. So it's probably good to wait until you get to that point if transference/strong dependency feelings are an issue.

I felt I was allowing myself to ask for support I needed without getting all tangled up in feeling too needy. It still often feels like a whole new thing for me to allow myself to do that! Contacting her now has become just one of several things I might do when I need a bit of extra support.

So basically, don't end too soon. Be patient with yourself. Self-compassion is very healing
Take care.
Thanks for this!
Coco3, LonesomeTonight