I started to drink because of teeth problems. Then I stopped. And then I picked it up again. I just got over depression. But I am bored. Drinking made me feel better. Actually makes me happier so that is why I drink . But I think it is wrong. I guess, it okay social, but I have been waking up and very bored and nothing to do. So I start drinking and I feel better. Feeling good is a new experience to me.
But again,I am writing about it's effects. I do tell myself to stop drinking for the day, but then I drink later. So I am gathering I might have a problem now.
I mean I quit smoking last year and I got over depression. I have things to be proud of.

I do have a sleeping problem. Drinking at those hours I am up does help pass the time and when I am enjoying myself.

I don't know what is happening because I didn't drink like this before. I really had no drinking problem before. I really don't understand.
Is there someone to help me out there without making me feel bad.
I wrote to my friend about it and she tore me apart. I don't think that it was a good friend thing to do. It really was not an understanding response. She tore my character apart. And I think she was completely wrong.

But I am gathering I have a problem though I have been enjoying myself. And like I wrote before, feeling good is new experience to me.

Please help me understand what is going on.