hi tazling
thank you for sharing your story. it is great that you have quit drinking. now you have to deal with the reasons you were doing it in the first place so you can remain sober and deal with the shame and regret you are feeling. you can do this by joining a 12 step program and counseling. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome