Hello, Love!

Sorry for shortening your name. I don't think I could type it all without misspelling it.

My own issues with sex abuse were pretty minor compared to yours (a cousin). My parents had a very hostile relationship towards each other (one time my Dad called my Mom a "f-word" "c-word" right in front of me). Fortunately, they never took any of their hatred toward each other out on me...well, not that often.

It does give me some empathy for your situation, though.

You have a great attitude, surprising and unique for someone who has gone through so much pain. The most important thing to do, in my opinion, is to not quit fighting. Even at 17, you are already a woman and you have a lot more maturity than some women five or even ten years older than you. Most of the women I have known in similar situations to yours is they finally give up and give in.

Don't!

I am here for you, at least as much as I can listen and give you a sounding board. For good or ill, that is all I can do.

I hope you can find a professional who will listen to you and believe you. Don't forget, in a therapeutic situation, your doctors should not listen to your parents, but should be there to help you with your struggles. They should also report any abuse of any kind to the cops. If this isn't happening, find someone else who will take you seriously.

Have you considered going to the courts and emancipating yourself now? I worry that waiting until you are eighteen will only cause you further harm.

Yours,

Killian