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I'm sitting here in tears because I could have written your post for you! I feel exactly the same way!! When ever anyone speaks to me, I wonder about their motive... Someone tells me good job, I'm wondering where the knife is that's waiting for my back... I hear someone leaving my cubicle and whisper something about "she" and I wonder what I've done... I hate it... I have a best friend who I've known for 14 years, and it wasn't until just the last 4 or 5 that I've truly begun to trust her and everything she says... (MY fault, not hers! She's been honest through everything!)
Trust issues? OH yea, I got 'em... And I know the sources for them... The question is, in this world of "dog eat dog" attitudes, and everyone worrying about themselves first, how do you get past it? I've been alone for 10 years because I can't bear the idea of even trying to trust someone on a first date... How do you start? Where does the "start" come from?
Inquiring minds want to know...
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If at first you don't succeed, hide the bodies of the witnesses and try again!
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