Your history of abuse helps explain why you have a hard time believing you have rights in this world. Well, you do! Of course, you are having a hard time "stomaching" the proposal that you get involved in this cybercrap. That's all it is. Listen to your stomach. Part of you wants to accomodate your boyfriend's request, just as you probably felt you had to accomodate some of the abuse in your home as a child.

Look in the mirror and say this to yourself, over and over: "I'm not doing that because I just don't want to!!! I don't want to. I don't want to. That's my reason, and it's a darn good reason."