It mattered to me because G-d wanted it to matter to me. He wouldn't have put this person in my life if there wasn't something to learn from it. I agree it doesn't matter what excuse this guy gave me or whether it's even the truth or not. What DOES matter are the lessons I learned from it. The mistakes I know I made that I know not to make again. I am focusing on myself. This IS all about ME. The fact that I now feel sorry for him just shows I've come out the other end and know that I don't want that kind of person in my life.

Believe me when I say I KNOW what I'm doing and my thinking process this past week HAS been for me and has helped me. We all have to process things in our own way and in our own time. You don't need to worry about me. I'm perfectly fine now.