Thanks all for your lovely input. Really encouraging and helpful.

Vital - a very good read that you attached. Thank you. Matters of unconsciouss thinking and choice were really relateable. Will be trying the 'snapping' for sure.
Not sure what the other link was to though...

Jo - RBD is the closest form I can relate to. I dont have short episodes that last 2-3 days, rather a week or week and a half. Definitely follows tbe pattern of 6 or more a year. Had been diagnosed with bipolar at one point, but tbe whole 'manic' or even 'hypomanic' aspect isnt present.
Im definitely a procrastinator during depressive phases,but when I am outside of them I am still a heavy procrastinator. My mood is fine, I relate well to others, but in terms of chores and neccessary to dos I really struggle. Whether it be guilt of some sort, or side effects of medication - procrastination happens when Im well and Im wondering if its a result of my depressive condition. Would make sense if so.
I am in therapy and have been througb various sorts in my time. I am currently seeing someone I relate to well and Im happy with seeing her on a regular basis. I am looking to go and see a psychiatrist about medication. In the past they werent helpful in trykng various different avenues when i was still ill, but hoping that there will be progress in seeing someone else. It seems with the amount of therapy I have been through without any real success, that medication should be a bit of a 'go to. Even with tbe nature of my depression - regular patterns without consciouss thoughts and predictions about when they will happen

Fizzy - lve been through various CBT exercises, but i dont seem to have enough will power/persistence with it all. I dont know if this is due to severity of the depression, or that it just doesnt work for me. What type of CBT have you found to work well?

Holligan - thanks for your support and kind words!

Thanks all for your replies. Means a great deal.

Ed

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