I have no thoughts, my attention span is all of 5 min. I have no feelings towards my husband or son. I'm just here,quite, blank and here. I can do things but have no motivation to do them. I can't tell you the last time I showered. I'm not depressed. I'm sleeping regular just I have no feelings or motivation. It's to the point I'm having difficulty modeling what others feel because I zone out a lot. I'm on pc all day but you wouldn't know it. My head has nothing going on like I'm not thinking. I don't like this. If this is normal how do I get use to this quite, numb girl with no personality? This is not who I am and meds have me trapped? How do I get use to this? Even t says I'm "flat". I can't handle life like this. I want to be happy not just exist. If existing is all I can get I don't want it. That's a robot not a person. How do I fix this? I need ideas. How do you get use to no thoughts or feelings? I want to be a good wife and mother but not at the expense of who I am. Is this bp, the meds, or am I really this horrible person that truly feels nothing outside of cycling?