Thank you for all your responses on my other post. It helped a lot and I'm still here!

I was clearly in a mixed state last night. My first for around 4 weeks. I'll be honest, I wanted to eat all of my medication again and not be here. I felt so hopeless. I was ok again after a few hours and I'm ok now. Just another foul side to this illness. I'm going to hang in there until my review on the 30th of this month. Unless there is a drastic change, I'll be asking for a change of medication.

Thank you all once again.