I like the idea of opening it just before I see my T. Well, day of session. If I could have it my way, I'd want to open it in private in my bedroom. I would want to process it and then scream (good or bad) for my fiance. Then I would go to session and talk to T about it. Btw, she already knows what the object is. Ex-T told her.

Actually, what I want can't happen. I would want my ex-T to physically give it to me, and let me cry with her.

Can I handle it if the object is not that book? Well, I will have to handle it at some point. That package will be opened this week. But I'm 99% it's it. It's the same shape and thickness. It can't be copy because they're no longer sold on amazon or the bookstores. And she always said that the object would represent our relationship. She already knows how much that book means to me. Well, if it's not that book, I'll be sobbing and crying it all out on here.

As for the letter: it's also inside the package. But I'm not ready to read it. That will be difficult to handle right now whether it's positive or negative.