Coming back to this one rather than starting a new thread because it's basically a continuation of a theme.

I had a very sociable week last week, which pushes my comfort zone, I can see I am making huge progress in opening up and putting myself out there (probably not a big deal to most people but a bigger deal to me). The underlying feeling I had was still that I feel undeserving, I have all these nice people around me saying lovely things and I feel like I don't deserve it. I have the loveliest new friend, had him over with my family, I cooked for everyone and we had the nicest time, lots of laughs together - afterwards, next day, I still felt that undeserving feeling. This was all in the face of the affirmative kind things he said to me.

I'm not sure if there is a way to ever undo such knotted thinking.