Year after year after year I was always the one anybody wanted. Not only in college. In high school I was always the last one to be chosen in PE and whenever we had to divide into pares I would end up alone and I would have to join two other people making a three people group.

In high school my table partner would leave if someone else who she was friend with got to be alone in their table.

I could be used to it by now, but I am not. Because it's really hard. And it's not only being the one nobody wants, the worst is my colleagues choosing people they don't know or never talked with over me. It really makes me feel unwanted. There's a lot of tiny details in the way my colleagues choose who they want to be with that make me feel unwanted. Like three diferent groups missing a person asking the same girl to be with them, and after she made her choice the other two opting to stay with one element less...when I still had no group. Or this guy asking me if I already had a group, me writing him back and he not answearing me anymore because in the meantime was asked by other colleagues to join them(one of the group which was missing a person, and even they had a spot left he didn't mention me or cared about me being alone). It's like anything is better than beying with me.

Of course if nobody wants me around it must be my fault, but even so it hurts every time. Thankfully the today group formation is the last one I had to endure as a student...