Hooligan - thank you, maybe I'm still depressed. I hate taking steps back. I will watch a motivational speaker today.

Sidestepper - my husband always goes with me. So he'll definitely say something as our relationship has plummeted because of this.

raspberrytorte - that's what I think too.

A Red Panda- I would never be friends with who I am right now. If this is me stable then I give up. I'd rather be unstable then this shell of a person. I have to stick with the meds or I'll end up ip and I can't walk in and out of my son's life like that.
simplydivine1030- thank you