Beanbag0, you were really dedicated to save up money for the therapist and then courageous to actually go there. Good job! But it was such a let down to find out that that particular T did not seem good for you.

I wonder if there might be ways to go to a therapist where you don't have to save up so much money, e.g. insurance? Are your parents willing to help financially with a therapist?

I agree with waggiedog: I hope that you will keep posting here on PC!