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Originally Posted by Soccer mom
My therapist asked what I'm scared of. I was perplexed in that I didn't feel like I was afraid of anything. And, I still can't pinpoint it. I rarely have anxiety but I do every single session. I have maternal transference towards her and expressing my feelings around my mom wasn't welcome or would have a bad outcome. So, I think it's around that. She's assured/reminded me that she's not my mom and won't react in the same way but my body doesn't seem to get the message. So, I thought about trying something to take the edge off.
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I think the edginess is being helpful and I would keep working on what is causing it and how I could help myself with it and/or ignore it. So you're anxious, so what? Your therapist doesn't need to reassure you that she is not your mom, you need to see that yourself, internally. Find/start to notice incidents where she responds differently than your mom responded or how you expected her to respond. Having a growing pool of good memories to draw on will make you braver and the anxiety won't be there anymore. Just masking/blunting it won't help it, the cause will still just be there. It is showing itself because it wants to be worked with.