Now I feel bad... I think I hurt her feelings
Email summary: She thanked me for expressing my concerns. She apologized that I feel like she hasn't been warm enough. She doesn't feel comfortable discussing this (about the object and how she reacts to me) over email, but she does want to talk about it. It's my choice when and where I want to open the package.
Her apologizing is what makes me feel bad. I'm afraid she took what I wrote as a whole and not just about how I feel when I cry. She's a very warm person in general. /sigh I suck at relationships.
Now I feel like I have to put this off for another week. I should have just kept my mouth shut. It's not fair to open it w/o discussing things with her first. And technically, even though I don't want to, I can survive putting it off for another week. I feel worse that I hurt her feelings....