My instinct is to fight it, its my natural response. Guess no matter how low I go my self-preservation is high, and sometimes I REALLY hate that about me.


Besides that, I honestly don't feel like I have the option of giving in, I'm a single mom and have a job to get to.


So what do I do?

I wait for my first off day and do as little as possible, as a kind of reward for making it to work and yada yada yada while being depro.

My family is really awesome and will take care of my daughter when I'm having a MH day, not that she's high maintainance, she's 11 and quite self-sufficient and mature.. But all the same, I'm so grateful for being able to take that down time and not have to worry about meeting someone else's needs or meeting someone else's deadlines and expectations.


This helps balance out pushing myself so hard all the damn time.


At times I honestly wish I wasn't wired to be so pushy.