Everyone laughs at my absent mindedness. I've got so much going against me in the memory department that it's truly frustrating. I've got a big hole in my life with a bunch of small ones. Drugs (legal and illegal) and alcohol didn't help. Being manic is like ADHD- going so fast that things don't have time to register. I have missing time because of switching in between alters has its own special effects. A lot of the time I go into a dissociative trance, it's like walking in a fog and coming to hours later and miles away.

Around and around in circles she goes, where she stops, nobody knows!