I sometimes think I just have a whiny, wimpy disposition. If my family isn't enough to make me fight, what is enough? Wanting to fight isn't enough to make me fight, you know? It doesn't help that I am a stay at home mom and don't have to "go to work." As a stay at home mom, I have a choice to either apply myself to a ****** job or to a great job. Before I was sick a few years ago, I was a fantastic mom. Since, I have done a horrible job and my level of self absobtion is simply out of control.