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Originally Posted by cashart10
I have no choices at this moment; I have no choice until Sept.
My thoughts flip-flop. I really LIKE my current pdoc and I know how much he cares for me. Like I mentioned, I have seen him on and off since I was 15. However, I both hear what all of you are saying and cannot ignore what Dr. G had to say. I am dispirited. 
Thank you for calling me tough...if I wasn't so depressed, I might believe you.   |
This is what helps me sometimes....
You don't have to make a decision today sweetie. You don't have to make a decision this week. Give yourself a break from thinking about this, from trying to figure it out and decide. Just release and relax a little bit.
I know your status quo right now sucks but it can't be helping to have the stress of this internal confliction on top of it. Unless I am missing something something it seems like you have no choice but to maintain status quo until you see the new guy in sept. Unless you were going to wean off your stuff by yourself (which is bad right.) or try to go inpatient and detox as people talked about in previous threads but you have been clear about how that isn't a choice for you.
I know you can't believe it right now but I know that it still helps to hear people say it. You are so strong. You have been dealing with this for so long. keep on keeping on Chica!