I used to SI and I still occasionally struggle with the thoughts. My worst times are usually when the stress in my life gets unbarable. It has been four years since I SI last. I found that the longer you go without SI the easier it gets. I had to sometimes go half hour by half hour just to get through the day. I am not going to lie, It is hard work to stop. I am still to this day not sure how I stopped. Something just finally clicked in my head. Maybe to because I admitted the real reason I SI. For me I did it for the attention. Negative attention was better than no attention at all. If I was in the hospital someone was there to care for me. The attention seeking thing somehow went into a way to cope with stress. I am getting off track here, sorry. Anyways I want to give everyone here hope and support if I can. I am so proud of everyone making a step to get help!!! ((((EVERYONE))))