There's quite a few stressful things going on there at the moment that you briefly touched on that would be enough to throw most people off course for a few days - moving, trips etc.

So I think that with your environmental factors happening I'm not too suprised that you feel a bit "off" at the moment.

Sleep can be good to help regulate our mood so glad you managed to do some of that yesterday. Feeling a sense of peace is pretty good too.

I'm sorry to hear that you are juggling so many responsibilities with work, family, looking after your mother - that's a lot on your plate right now.

You asked:

"Why don't I get to say I can't handle it anymore and be a little selfish for what I need?"

I think that you have a right to be heard, honestly I do.

Have you tried discussing this with your family?

Is there any way, in the interum whilst you get the trip and the move sorted you can negotiate a more flexible arrangement at work with your boss in the short term as you make this transition?

Can you get help from anyone in the family just for now to help out with your mother?

I'm trying to think of things that might lessen the load that you're carrying right now so that things start to feel a bit more managable for you.