inky,

I think you should tell him what you just told us...that you eat something every day, but you might eat something one morning and not eat again until the following evening.

I know it might be hard to give your doc the information you know you should, because you have said that you have a lot of drive to continue these patterns. But please try to see that the doc is trying to help you.

While restricting may feel good when you do it, and you may feel like you are accomplishing, in the long run it really makes so many of your problems worse. All of your physical issues, the heart palpitations, the arthritis, are made worse by being undernourished. And in the long run, this behavior that makes you feel good today also is hurting your emotional health, by not giving both your body and your brain what they need to really recover.

I do hope so much that you can come to see that. You are such a special person, and you deserve to be treated well, even by yourself.

*hugs*
Jo