Every day is controlled by other ppl telling me what to do..I have decisions made for me..where I live..when I can drive to get groceries..when I housesit for mom..when I can stay home..what activities my son do..today I had to tear down my flower garden cuz ma says there is no room for it where she is moving me to Fri cuz she planted bushes all over..that was my only hobby..I feel like I am 10..I want to get a med that makes me emotionally numb..unable to care about anything and allows me to sleep day and night every day..any suggestions? No weight gain plz.