I have nowhere else to say this. And I have to say this here or else he may never hear it. If I had it my way I wouldn't say a word.

Today was the most I have cried in about a year. It felt almost exactly the same. Like I was gonna be alone forever. Like no one could ever love me. No one could ever stick with me. Even those that understand me and my issues can't handle me. Can't live with me. Especially those that understand. Those that should be able to stick with me can't.

And I don't know what to do. What's the point of falling in love when I can't be loved back?