I was so tempted to drink(sober 23 years)..and I mesmerized myself almost thinking about antidepressants in the drawer....

over and over in my head i asked how to fight the feeling....the pure frustration feeling ..a waiting feeling...for what?..I don't know...I've never known...but it's a feeling that makes me want to drink....so i tried putting on my CD..of Aretha Franklyn and Otis Redding..and I danced and sang my heart out...I cried and I screamed and sang opera style...

and it worked. But I'm so sore in the muscles today...+ my voice is strained...and my throat hurts...like I've got flu...maybe its a singing, dancing hangover??? for me.Believe me I don't have a big head but I feel like a champion. I'm not sure if I can do this each time but!!! because as I said before i feel like a train wreck..from the physicality of it.