Thanks for your suggestions. I am already on disability so I only work about 5 hours a week but I work for a close friend and I handle all of the accounting and hr. Working for her adds stress because now it's personal. I don't have any other family I can rely on for help. They don't accept mental illness as an illness so they don't see a reason to help even when asked. They have the view that I am lazy and a drain on society.

Most of the time I can handle it but I feel like I've been right to the edge of what I can handle since January. I had a major manic cycle Jan, stabilish Feb, depressive cycle March, mixed cycle April, and exhausted but still baby cycling every 3-4 weeks.